Friday, April 1, 2016

Week 16

This week was a bit of a blur. Pregnancy symptoms were mild, although today was another day where I slept for 9.5 hours, then got up and immediately felt like taking a nap. But I haven't had much nausea since its brief resurgence last week and I've only had a bit of cramping, and my boobs aren't as sore as they have been (though boy have they itched! What is UP with the itching?)... basically, itchy boobs aside, I don't really feel pregnant right now... and were it not for hearing the heartbeat last week I think that might be making me nervous. (If you spend enough time on pregnancy forums you wind up reading all about missed miscarriages and all kinds of other crazy stuff to keep you up at nights...)  I don't look particularly pregnant either, though I'll be adding a bumpie to the end of this post anyway, just for posterity's sake, and for my mom. Hi, Mom.

I met with some other local women who are all due in September the other night. It was nice to talk to ladies going through the same things at the same time, and I think it'll be good to know other mom's with kids the same age... but the actually having children the same age thing seems so distant right now that it's hard to think about.

And that's the struggle isn't it? It's still not easy for me to picture myself as the parent of an infant, or toddler. I can picture the teenage years pretty easily, but everything else...

People are always stunned when I say that. Most parents seem to dread the teenage years. I don't know if it's because I made a living from working with teens for so long, or the fact that I had a pretty good relationship with my own parents as a teenager, or just the fact that scathing sarcasm is still such a big part of my sense of humor... but the idea of having a teenager doesn't bother me in the least.

A toddler on the other hand? Or a baby? That is the stuff of nightmares. No control of their own bodily functions, emotions, or reactions. Low level communication skills. Inability to appreciate the perspective of others... not looking forward to that part.

But everyone tells me kids are cute and lovable at that phase...

I have yet to confirm that with any concrete evidence. I know a very small handful of children at that age who strike me as cute and lovable. The vast majority strike me as jerks. Can you see why I've been reluctant about this whole reproducing thing?

I'm terrified I will produce a jerk. A total Jerk-baby-poop-and-vomit-monster-of-crying-tantrums-and-doom. That's what I'll be stuck with, with no way to send it back.


Speck is supposed to be the size of a pear now.

Does it look like I'm hiding a pear in there? I think that's probably just the pizza I ate last night...

I don't think this sports bra is going to fit for much longer, it's starting to feel pretty... constricting. Might be time to buy some new ones but... argh I don't want to spend money on stuff that's only going to fit for a limited time. Of course, that assumes that my boobs will get smaller again when I'm done with the whole milk production thing. I guess that's a big assumption, but it seems like it's mostly the norm... maybe. I don't know.

I don't know about any of this.

And now, even though I'd planned to write more things, interesting things, I'm suddenly really tired again and feel like taking a nap. Damn. 

Well, I suppose nothing could be more a more accurate representation of pregnancy than for me to leave you here because I need to go sleep for a few hours. The pregnancy websites did say that this week Speck will be having a huge growth spurt, doubling in weight. That could explain my sudden drowsiness.

Well, no use putting it off then. The creature inside me demands that I rest. So I rest I shall. More next week! 

**Today's post brought to you by: the ellipsis... Not sure why I used so many of them...**


  1. Looks more like a kumquat than a pear!

    1. Haha! Yeah, it's not really popping out much. Although if you compare it to the picture of me at 5 weeks it looks like I've... I don't know... swallowed something long and uncomfortable?

  2. I have this sudden urge to reminisce about my pregnancies. I do remember itchy, swollen, aching breasts. My recommendation is to buy nursing bras. You can use them through the pregnancy and during the nursing stage.

    I'm looking forward to your next post! Enjoy the long naps. You're storing it up for those sleepless nights ahead.

    1. I had been contemplating buying nursing bras just to avoid buying larger bras that I won't be able to use later. So I will probably take that suggestion, but I keep putting it off. Where's a good place to buy maternity stuff in Winnipeg?

      Today I napped for 2.5 hours right after I posted this. It was so satisfying. I was soooo tired.

  3. Do you know about kids consignment sales, yet? Here's one for Winnipeg:
    They often have mom sections, too, in which you can find used maternity clothes, etc. They're usually twice/year.

    This chain is also ok for kids stuff, though they don't seem to have maternity stuff:

    1. Confirmed they sell maternity/nursing items. Their spring sale is in May, and if you're a first timer, they will let you shop at the presale if you register in advance. Presales are always a good idea because the good stuff goes quick!

    2. I didn't know about either of those things, but I will be sure to check them out. Thanks for doing the research on my behalf, Jilly! :-)